Reading Date: 12/13/20
<aside> 🔮 Reading Type/Inquiry: Healing Trauma Reading for {Anonymous}
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<aside> 🔮 Deck Used: Oracle of Visions by Ciro Marchetti
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<aside> 🔮 Intended Outcome of Reading: This reading is intended to integrate the 3 A's of Awareness, Acceptance, Action.
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Trauma impacts us all differently and by proxy, it shows up differently in our lives at random times. Most often, when we're least expecting it too. This impacts the way you see things in your life (both good and bad). Sometimes, it can skew our perspective as a protective measure or coping mechanism.
When in doubt — ask yourself, "is this perspective really mine, or is it trauma or fear or shame talking?"
Believe it or not, the coping mechanisms we adapted as children actually did serve us at some point. They became a source of inner peace, however briefly, that shielded us. When we no longer need those coping mechanisms though, it's time to let go of those out-dated versions of inner-peace and replace it with a new, empowered, self-directed Inner Peace. The one you so deserve. It can even be a small moment of being one with stillness and serenity.
Inner Peace looks different for everyone. It could be something as simple as watching a sunset or holding your child in your arms in a quiet, solitary moment.
Trauma survivors cite "control" as one of the issues they struggle to overcome. It makes sense. So many of us had our control stolen, or squashed, or minimized. That's why, as adults, we struggle to hold onto the things we can control and then panic when things start slipping from our grasp.
The flip side of this though is that we're fantastically productive people. That's a great attribute in the light, but in the dark it can look like workaholism, obsession, fixation. Byproducts of... you guessed it, lack of control.
Do you try to grasp firmly onto your tasks/duties/relationships because you feel it's the only way to control the situation? If so, that's normal! But it may be time to look at how it's affecting your relationships at a deeper level.
Have you ever been told that you'll:
"Never be somebody"
"Never Make it"
"Never Be Important"
You're not alone. There are so many people who grow up hearing these words that they believe them. If you've never been told what you're capable of, how would you even know that you can grow into something so beautiful?
Limitations tell you that.
This card asks you to think about all the ways you've held yourself back because you were told that you couldn't do it.
We were never meant to go at this life thing alone as solitary creatures. But along the way, asking for help may have turned out to be fruitless, or even scary. Or maybe you've never had the opportunity to get the help you've wanted. This card is saying that help is out there, you just have to be willing to make one vulnerable choice:
let them.
This card suggests that healing further with a professional will not help you release the trauma, but it could take you to the next level of your healing.
This card is calling to me very strongly as both a caution and a reward. I believe it's saying that when you embrace the hard parts of working through your trauma and pain, the end result is feeling a sense of tranquility and peace in your life. I also think it's a warning that the lack of peace will continue if you never confront the trauma that's held inside of you.
Tranquility doesn't mean that bad things still aren't happening (hello, COVID!) or that they won't happen in the future. Tranquility means learning to be okay in those moments. It means allowing the external world to soldier on but inside, you've found a source of strength and inner peace to help you get through it.